Sitting down and getting to ready to write something for a blog post, I always have the same thought, “You wanted to be a writer? Well, writers write, artists paint, and runners run.” I haven’t written anything for my blog recently, though I have been writing. Currently, I am in a tremendous flux in my life. What started as a simple house remodel, well, it has turned into contracting nightmare hell. There is just no other way to put it. I have been watching a lot of Property Brothers on HGTV; my experience is not like Property Brothers. Let’s just say I am on my 5th month of renovation. The fireplace, which I think is working, one of the few working items in the house, is ripe for burning money.
I gave a 30-day notice to my landlord, and I have to be moved out by next week. Well, I am in the process of moving, unfortunately the home I am moving into does not have one complete bathroom, and the kitchen while aesthetically done, does not have running water or a working stove. Hey, the new refrigerator is working, and there is plenty of cold beer and wine in it at all times! And this past Friday? Well, I got an unexpected email from my Pharma Company job, to be on a call in the late afternoon. Surprise, Surprise, you are now a part of the newly unemployed! You can bet I was hanging out by the new refrigerator all weekend. Being in the new house was perfect for drinking cold beer, because the air conditioning is now not working! So, I know that life is difficult. I know that problem solving is required throughout all of my life, but it doesn’t mean you cannot wish for just a little of the easy life! My brain is about to explode from problem solving, and I am proud to express that I did not take the problem-solving step of murdering my contractor who ran off with $10,000 of my money for a deck that was started and not completed! On March 1st, I got off of all of my medications. Yeah, the last three years of my life have been hell, years filled with a lot of lost, but something happened somewhere in my life recently where I decided to get back on track. Going off anti-depressants was a big step. I cannot say it’s been an easy ride. Problems I have encountered include erratic sleep patterns and some big mood swings. Poor Dr. Ashden has had to witness some of these swings. Fortunately, they have been pretty limited, and Dr. Ashden and I do not live together! The plus side of life without medication is I am feeling better. I am no longer feeling like a TV extra on the Walking Dead. My thought process has become clearer. I have more energy. My motivation has dramatically increased. I live a pretty routinized life pattern, and I stick to it, so it made getting off medication easier. My ex-wife told me just the other day, “You sound great!” Just a note here, I am not a doctor, and I would not encourage anyone to go off medication without talking to your doctor. Things do get better, and a lot of the way things get better is having faith. The problems I am going through, well, they are solvable. As for getting a new job, well, I hated my Pharma job; the industry has changed so much in the last five years. I have a Texas Real Estate Broker’s license and I have a good working knowledge in constructing Real Estate Virtual Tours, I learned these skills in case I ever lost my job, so, it’s time to get busy! I think to myself, “Yeah life is difficult, but the secret to being a better person is to not make your difficult life difficult for other people.” Before getting out of bed every morning, I thank God, and then I give thanks for 10 things in my life. I come to believe just having a little faith and a little or a lot of courage you can do almost anything. Off to the kitchen I go, boxes to be packed and to be moved into a new unfinished kitchen with cold beer!
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